resist the urge to be yourself
destroy it all
push it deep, deep down
bend it out of shape
wake up and realize you don’t know how anything works anymore.


you are not yourself even if you try
give in.
stop speaking, thinking,
stop wanting to be understood
after a while you learn that everything stops.


you cannot be yourself
in the paranoid schizophrenic ward
locked in with the kooks
but there is nothing for you out there
and this is not an exit.